The sheer lack of solid ground, the twisted turns and constantly having people flitting in and out of ones life- it is interesting, but also very tiring. Recently, I often find myself standing up against so many older, more eloquent and educated people - in an area in which im not even familiar with to begin with- it just feels like I am asking too much of myself. Telling people how old I actually am, sometimes makes things worst- I see eyebrows raised and people trying to take advantage of my so called lack of experience.. in well, everything.

Non the less, thank you for being there for me for the past month or two. The time when I came down with a cold, you came to my place when I wasnt around and left me a note with instructions as to how to find and use the vitamin C pills and tissues which was stashed in your coat pockets. Each time I had a bad day at work, all I had to do was to give you a call, and you will be there. Instead of ciggie breaks, we'd go for ice cream or slurpee breaks. Sometimes I dont talk, and just stare off into blank space while trying not to think about, anything. Instead I let you talk. Sometimes, I just rant on and on, and for some reason you find my rants amusing - even when I wasnt even trying to be funny.

Thank you for never trying to give unwanted advice, for never asking me awkward questions I have no answers to, for holding me back when I nearly lashed out at the 7/11 worker when I was pissy and frustrated after freshly getting out of an argument with a bull headed ego person. I confess, yes- I hardly lose my temper, but when I do, it can get really reallyyy ugly.

I guess you were just there when I really needed someone to be there. And I really appreciate that so much. At least you didnt send me a sms after a week asking me about how I am..and then talking about the weather, when there was so many more things to talk about under the sun (no pun intended)

Ps: Kekawanku, I know the pic above is highly irrelevant to the post and is blurry. But then again, nothing I have seems relevant. Hence the vain pic. Btw that is my sis.