Opps.

Its disheartening to see how matters turn out sometimes. Its like those sunny mornings which turn out stormy in the end. Half boiled eggs that came out more runny then you wanted them to be. Coffee that smells right but ended up tasting funny. Its like listening to a catchy intro on the radio before realizing the whole song is sucky.

Gosh I sound anal. Sorry but I cant another way to put this.

Ok time to divert your attention. People, focus on the cute kid in pink. My one and only cousin (No serious) An absolute natural in front of the camera. I flash out the camera and she poses immediately :)  I say, "gimme another pose" and she quickly obliges.

For awhile we went "pose!" snap. "pose!" snap. "pose!" snap.

My aunt laughs in the background, exclaiming "wow the diva so layan you one!"

This was taken two chrismasses ago, kinda obvious if you look at the date stamp. And the chistmas tree. lol.

Found this just now while looking at ancient pictures. It seems like it was only yesterday. Time passes so fast. In between then and now so many things have happened. Sometimes I still think Im still reeling from shock from the random turn of events. Its like someone have turned the chapters of the book too fast and being slow, I still havent really digested it all. Yet wanting to save face, I pretend to have understood it all and head off into the next chapter -_-||

But oh well. 

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As seconds tick, minutes past, hours disappear...days fade by. And with each good morning, the line between current realities and past memories blur- that is when confusion gets more profound.

If I have faith, if you have faith in destiny, then would this whole process be redundant?Would it make matters more simpler? Our actions more saner?

Would we still find a need for explainations?

Aphrodite, you are one lousy joker.

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12pm thoughts.
And so I thought I should go wordy this time.

As of now, I am fine, if I do not think so much about it. If I do, then perhaps I'd feel fucking miserable. So yeah Im kinda functioning in a state of mental denial. I am well aware of it. But hey, if it keeps me going from day to day. Why not kan? People are often happier if they dont constantly think and question about the state they are in.

I have no classes today. I sitting here in a spaghetti top and my spongebox squarepants pants which I will only wear at home (haha wtf kan but I love this pants they are awesome). I have a horrible suntan from sunburst. Yes I went to sunburst. I had a backstage pass. And I dont even fancy any of the artists. I was just there for some random events job. So yeah, I got free admission. On top of that I got paid. Good deal.

I swear some people out there wanna murder me now already.

Anyway random sunburst stuff. Korn like pizza, they ordered loads of dominos after the show. No the lead singer does not wear kilts offstage. He is a jeans guy. He is really vain he tosses his hair like those girls you see in shampoo commercials and checks himself out in the mirror alot. His girlfriend(I think, or just some random female he picked up somewhere) though is really hot. She bounces around in sky high heels, skinny jeans and a piece of tiny scarf (no bra thus my usage of the word "bounce" hehe). They had 4-5 security guards outside their fitting room. Redundant, really.

Forget about studying hard and being a doctor kids, flunk school and be a rockstar instead.

Oh yeah, school....I am supposed to do my assignment yet here I am typing away. Since I keep getting distracted by random thoughts such as "Fossil or Swatch?" "Swatch or Fossil?". Then I start googling Fossil and Swatch. Perhaps I should just get a watch and stop myself from the constant deliberation. or perhaps I should just choose fossil or swatch as the company Im suppose to do research on. Might as well kan, kill two birds with one stone hm.

Then again, I'd still be clicking on FML and laughing at all the shit people get themselves into. I am so easily distracted wtf T.T

Okay, 12.30 pm dah. Back to assignment.

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Pretending to be busy.

This i think is the ultimate epidemic of people's attitude nowadays. Please do check out your msn contact list tonight, i swear half of them will have their status set as "busy"

Thats just the issue. People always say the sunsets and sunrises in east coast are prettier. Which is weird cause I actually seen some pretty sunsets in KL and klang. Of course, they are rare. But hey, we are busy people with important matters to take care of. We also happen to have bigger issues to bother. No time to look up at the sky and take a moment and enjoy its prettiness wtf.

I admit I pretend to be busy also sometimes. But at least then, my personal message reads "pretending to be busy". Sometimes when I'm pretending to be offline (thats when Im REALLY busy), I change my message to "pretending to be offline"

I know I damn syok sendiri sometimes. Oh well.

What I am busy with now:

2 and a half more assignments.
trying to get rid of the sunburn I got at sunburst.

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I received an ulu mail from an ulu place today.

Thank you woman! Made my day this one.
Keep an eye on ur mail, 777.

;)

love,
perempuan simpanan (Isnin)

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KL.
This two weeks.

Yesterday, I was walking through probably the last kampung in the city when I saw these two Caucasians happily snapping away at this particular angle for a very long time. Was wondering why did they go through all the trouble photographing from the same angle-as if wanting to perfect it. Passing the area later, I got curious and went to stand at the exact same spot which they stood and realised why.

The picture above is the result.
KL lama vs KL baru.

KL through the eyes of another.

The day I went wandering off to Jalan Petaling just for fun cause class was canceled.

There was alot of graffiti there. I like looking at graffiti. Its art.

See?

Something I stumbled across on petaling st. OMG.
I kinda like walking aimlessly around the city.

Sometimes I feel like such a tourist in my own country.
Since I am so endlessly fascinated. And always get lost -.-'

Not happening in Perak. No.
(im not speaking about respecting childhood lol)

McJobs for ya.
Stupid mcdonalds assignment, I shall not be touching McAnything for quite some time d.

There was a kenduri in front of my house and I wasnt invited.

cutecutecutecutecutecuteeee.
my temporary housemates for a few days before they disappeared :(

When you cant go to the mosque, you bring the mosque to you.

Speaking of mosques, some missionary accidently delivered the words of allah to me when I walked pass them. I didnt bother to explain myself- too lazy to take out my ic to help them identify my race and religion. So I just smiled and took the leaflet.

FML.

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Echo.

The conversation we had in the car made me more feel more lonelier than i have ever felt in my life. I knew but i have never spoken about how sucky things have been at least not on this topic. and hearing my thoughts in words, i realized i am a piece of work. messed up. and i just gotten to the rough pieces, not even close to the intricate shards. 

I always think people who constantly feel pity for themselves are selfish. But then i really do feel really bad for myself. they say life is temporary, why does everything in mine suddenly seem even more temporarier? Its scary. so scary to hear my own words echo against the silence, seeing the long almost empty strech of highway in front of me make it seem like its gonna be a damn long road ahead. 

At that moment I was scared of myself, scared for myself.

It feels like i have waded through shit for awhile, sometimes things are ok and the shit is around my ankles, but sometimes it feels as though the shit was around my chest, threating to take me alive with all its glorious stench.

And I told someone we just have to take whatever shit life hands to us and make the best out of it. Cause most of the time we really dont have much choice anyway. 

Sometimes I feel as though I am contradicting my own words.

But then again shit happens.
And apart from that really freaky moment that thankfully passed,I had the best weekend in awhile.

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Thy ears bleed.

Sometimes I feel extremely tired of the music playing on the local radio. Yes the tunes are catchy, but too much repetitive words in the chorus is driving me mad.

Take for example:
Put your hands up air. In the Ayer. Eh ayer. Ayer. Eh Ayer. Ayer. Eh Ayer.
-Flo Rida, In (duh) Ayer.

Cant keep my hands. My hands. My uh My hands. Cant keep my hands. My hands out the cookie jar.
-Gym Class heros, cookie jar.

Oh ohohh oh oh. oh ohhh oh. i'll get him hot show him what ive got. cant read my. cant read my. no he cant read my poker face. my poker face. po-po-po-poker. po-po-poker face. mum mum mum mah. mum mum mum mah.
-Lady Gaga, Pokerface.

Womanizer. woman-womanizer. Oh womanizer. Oh womanizer. You're a womanizer baby. You-you-you are. You-you-you are. womanizer, womanizer, womanizer...
-Britney Spears, thetitleisadeadgiveaway.

Whhhhyyy?
Oklah end of rant. Here are some songs I think is worth checking out.

Boyce Avenue- Change your Mind
(awesome awesomeeeee band, go listen to all of their stuff. Go :D)

Imogen Heap- Speeding Cars.
(kinda unusual but it grows on you, especially the opening)

Colbie Caillat- Tailor Made, One Fine Wire.

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i snapped

this is me
2.3.09

Go be vain somewhere else:
www.poladroid.net

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