Thursday, March 22, 2007
Waking up
Today, I skipped an hour's lecture because I simply couldnt take the lecturer's way of teaching-one powerpoint slide per hour.Yup, It was THAT SLOW. Anyway, I was walking home alone and was so totally engrossed in my own thoughts, I failed to hear one of my friends calling my name. It was only when he practically SHOUTED my name at my face when I finally woke up from my daze.
Shocked and dazed, I shot a smile at him and mumbled a hi.
This lead me to think,perhaps I am so caught up with my own problems that I just fail to see that I am actually quite blessed. AND yes, there are people actually who actually care about me.
I woke up from getting hurt from being lied to. From having huge gigantic secrets being withheld from me. I woke up from thinking that I can control most of the things in my life. Things which are beyond my control,my abilities. I woke up understanding that I am human. That it is ok to get hurt. To hurt others. To hate. To love. To like. and to dislike.I woke up today.
I still have more waking up to do.
Cause I am not perfect.
and that I am human.
Today, I skipped an hour's lecture because I simply couldnt take the lecturer's way of teaching-one powerpoint slide per hour.Yup, It was THAT SLOW. Anyway, I was walking home alone and was so totally engrossed in my own thoughts, I failed to hear one of my friends calling my name. It was only when he practically SHOUTED my name at my face when I finally woke up from my daze.
Shocked and dazed, I shot a smile at him and mumbled a hi.
This lead me to think,perhaps I am so caught up with my own problems that I just fail to see that I am actually quite blessed. AND yes, there are people actually who actually care about me.
I woke up from getting hurt from being lied to. From having huge gigantic secrets being withheld from me. I woke up from thinking that I can control most of the things in my life. Things which are beyond my control,my abilities. I woke up understanding that I am human. That it is ok to get hurt. To hurt others. To hate. To love. To like. and to dislike.I woke up today.
I still have more waking up to do.
Cause I am not perfect.
and that I am human.
Labels: personal
posted by hiddenmcky at 4:41 PM
2 Comments:
one powerpoint slide per hour?! punk.
anyway..
no matter what, just think of this 5 feet tall somewhat-of-an-alcoholic baboon (i cant help it, my mom got me another bottle of vodka! it's still sitting pretty in the fridge!). for some reason bigger than life itself, i'll always be there for you, to pick you up when you fall, to wake you up when you fall into a deep sleep, to wait for you when you decide to go away, to bail you out of jail and more.
if there's one thing i rather not do, is to not tell you that i care for you (quite confusing. sorry)
it is great to wake up to revelation. when i drink later, i'll toast to you, cheers.
life's a bitch, but hey, at least we are on the same boat :)
i hope tat u will get out of ur nightmare as soon as possible. if u need my hlp pls let me noe.
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