Thursday, August 16, 2007
Locked, soul and all, behind closed doors and golden padlocks
Freestyle emo post please stay away.
I,
have always kept a safe distance,
bridging along the lines of familiarity and strangeness,
you see, what you wanna see,
think what you wanna think,
opinions matter not,
for someone who abondoned care and adopted indifference.
seeing the world from a third point of view.
The perspective from a third point of view,
requires one to sit through hours of silent movies,
the movie is silent and so are you,
watching images of the past, present and make believe future,
looping, again and again, neverending,
until you get quite sick of it.
Feeling leaves when numbness sets in,
reigning supreme in his cold throne,
watching,understanding,predicting,
yet never taking part.
wishing, yet never trying.
hoping, yet never determined enough,
always setting goals which are not meant for you.
I Search.
I seek.
What do I hope to find?
What do I wish to find?
Labels: personal
posted by hiddenmcky at 7:30 AM
4 Comments:
this is the kind of entry that people will come, read, then they'll do two things:
1- close this window because they dont know wtf you're talking about
2- comment and say "i'll be here for you. cheer up" cuz they don't know wtf you're talking about.
i am going to do neither.
i think (correct me if im wrong) i know what this is about. i cannot say "i'll be there for you" because physically i cannot achieve that.
neither will i say "i understand what you're going to" because that again would be a lie.
but i can say "i will listen to you" because that would be neither a lie nor an empty promise.
i love you, mk. take care.
-aim
>aim
ya, you are correct. its the exact thing i told you last week.
thanks for listening to be talk into the night, seriously not many people can do that. its feels better just telling someone, i dont know how the hell i survived all these years with so many issues bottled up.
thanks =)
fyi, you are the first one i told all those to in such detail.
But i DO understand what you're saying especially the 2nd last and last stanza... about that something you want to have/achieve but somehow just can't figure out what it is and how you regret all the times you felt you didn't try your best or never tried at all due to fear etc.
Or maybe i don't understand... it speaks to me in that way though. My use of the term EMO maybe inaccurate but i definitely feel like that sometimes. Thinking about my horrible past and wishing how it would get better in the future. And since things doesn't seem to get better, i'd just ignore everything and everyone since there's nothing i feel i can do about it anyway.
Not sure how to help but hope you feel better and won't have to freestyle more EMO posts in the future.
Bye.. and take care.
shaun, you are closer to the truth more then you know.
I am fine, the sun is still shining and I still believe that my glass is half full.
nways thanks for commenting..and yeah I will take care
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