Play safe, get shades

Taken at the Penang Batu Feringgi Night Market one and half months ago. Ohmygoodness has it been so fast? Apparently the trader is fed up of all the hanky panky-ness his customers display. And thus, the weird sign.

angelin, I dont think your superb bargaining skills will work on this guy. Yes, even the straight "Sepuluh ringgit" face

Tell me, did this picture make a smile sneakily creep upon your face or did it made a smile creep sneakily upon your face?

After all those ridiculously deep postings, this is a nice change.

Smile people!
Smile even if you dont have a reason to.

Oh wait, you do!
Eye condoms wtf.

:)

Labels: holidays, photography, random

Nostalgic over prosperity burgers

Today, I fulfilled one of my chinese new year resolutions.
Which is to eat a prosperity burger.

Anyway, while me and my classmates were munching into our hoard of cholesterol inducing food and Mcsizing ourselves, Yvonne suddenly mentioned that kids these days just arent as lucky as kids from our time.

wahseh, like so old lidat
but you know what, she has a point.

Then Erh continued by saying kids these days are lucky IF their parents are loaded.Cause people are so scared of letting their kids run free they lock them behind the doors and stuff them with all kinds of gadgets to keep them occupied.

Dulu: Get off the sofa and find something to do outside.
Now: Bored? heres a PsP. Now dont run outside and play ok?

The whole issue is so bad that even kids have become materialistic. Qiqi has a bratty cousin who rejected a doll she gave to that lil monster cause well, it wasnt BARBIE.

...........wtf. Got difference one meh?
She should have told the little monster that Barbie is divorced. Boohoo.

Guess it takes more to make those people happier now.
I mean, do you remember the fads during primary school?

• the shaker pens?

• the water drinking contests the boys used to have?

• and the burping contests? haha damn gross

• the pokemon cards?

• digimon stickers?

• tamagochi?

• gameboy?

• power rangers?

• and godforbid, sailormoon.

• the way your teacher would seat the boys with the girls to keep the class silent? yeah right it only works for like... a day?

• the way you hated the idoitic boy who sat next to you and you would tell him to keep within the imaginary line you drew across between the gap of the tables?

• the way the prefects would budge into your classes and act like pompous arses.

• the way your class monitor would write your name on the blackboard if you were noisy?

I was the class monitor for 3 years in primary. Haha, I still remember some of the few noisy people's names cause I wrote them everyday. Liang Jiun Jie, Kong Kang Hao and Ting Wen Hua wtf

• the way you would race to the school gate after school?

• the way your bag used to weigh more than you?

I suppose it didnt take much to make us happier when we were younger. We believed more, criticized less. We used to believe that imagination was cooler than sarcasm. It didnt matter at all if you were clad in kikilala or lalakiki. We used to believe that ice cream was the antidote to all problems and that where babies come from was a fascinating question..

eh wait, we STILL think that is fascinating question! lol

On another note, heres a conversation I had today:

Me:How come the prosperity burger this year not so delicious one?
Qiqi: Maybe cause when you were younger, you were happy to believe that anything from McDonalds is delicious.

Labels: college, coursemates, thoughts

What makes you tick?

Deep breathes helps when you are angry. I know. Cause each time I feel that familar feeling surge, I start counting each breath I take like some freaking pregnant woman. I dont care. It works. Even on non pregnant people like guys.

I lost count of how many breaths I took just now.
All I can hear is the relentless ticking of the clock beside my ear as I lay on the bed.

tick. tick. tick. Always the same sound as before. Then why does it feel so strangely assuring to me this time? As if I am reassured by the fact that this feeling will eventually tick away. And hopefully, the things which have been bothering me will miraculously tick themself into oblivion.

Tick. Tick. Ticky. Tock.
One. two. three. four.
count the seconds on my clock.

Then in between the angsty thoughts, it struck me that as I lay here, each time the clock ticks, life is ticking away too.

And even an insolent fool can tell you solemnly that it is futile to try to fight it. We're better off trying to be happy with the time we have instead of counting down each second ticking away while mumbling profanity in a myriad of languages and dialects into your poor pillow.

Why? because its not worth it.

So with that thought I fell asleep. And I had a weird dream which involved one of my guy housemates bringing back a pretty cute angmoh gal with the most adorable brown eyes and honey colored hair and introducing her to us as his girlfriend.

damn, like some corny meet the parents movie lidat.

So,I woke up a lil disorientated and confused. But grinning like mad at my roommate's tilam above me as I was sleeping at the lower bunk of the double decker bed.

And you know what, I walked out and told them about my weird dream.
And it made the exam stressed people happy... for at least awhile lah.

Although I havent traveled far today or did something remarkable and of note, I learnt something very important today.

Share the joy.
Forget the anger.

and always take deep breathes when you are angry.
no matter how toxic and polluted the air around you might be.

=)

Labels: life, personal, thoughts

Sometimes...

The blind see the world in a more optimistic way.
The mute speak more to us through their eyes.
The deaf understand more than those who hear you.

we just gotta be strong.
for them.

Sometimes...

The first to finish might not emerge as the true winner.
The second helping isnt as fulfilling as the first.
The third world countries can help too.

We just gotta be neutral.
For the better of everyone.

And of course, everyone sometimes get emo.

===============

Due to the passing of my accounts paper, I now have the priviledge to be free enough to have a look at all the unpublished posts I have saved in my drafts.

Life is a roller coaster of raw emotions.

Thank god for the things that kept me sane.

:D

Labels: random

Growing Old Prematurely
..... on a yearly basis

Yes, the cake says blackx2 mickey.
malasnye kata ganda also wanna ganda dua.
how you people pass BM for SPM ah?

and thats my finger trying to cover the obvious problem. I am tanned. Not black! :(

Today I blew two candles.

Yes, two.
I missed having many candles stuck on my cake lah.
=(

Amazingly, it isnt even my birthday YET.
I turn 20 on the 29th lah.
Its only 16 today.

Whywhywhy la my birthday have to fall during exam season every year, and thus, causing people to have to celebrate it earlier.

Last year, I celebrated it the first time on the 13th of January.
wtf.
At least this year got improvement of erm... 3 days.

Dont start wishing me happy birthday ah.
I am still 19.
I dont care what my housemates say about being 20 after I blow the two candles and ate the cake.

I am still 19.
at least for the next 12 days.

=)
Still a teenager!
People, let me enjoy the remainder of my teenage life in peace ya.

Anyway, thanks to all my housemates for being so super sweet to remember and even bother to run off to get a cake and celebrate my birthday. Early or not lah. I really appreciate it. Its the thought that matters :D

no wonder the fridge seem so full la today.
-.-''

Anyway, pictures!

Labels: birthday, college, housemates, personal

Needs and desires.

As defined by the marketing note we had godknowshowmanycenturies ago, needs are basic things that we must have to survive.

You know. Like food, water, air, cash, electricity, internet access and coffee.
No doubt I'd malfunction if my life lack these stuff.

Then there's desire. Things that marketers make you think that you need but dont really need to survive. sounds scary yeah?

Ah well, thats commercialism for you. A modern and widely acceptable form of brainwashing.

Everyday you wake up, listen to the radio, walk on the streets, turn on the tv and go online, you are bombarded with all the unneccesary information and news of the things you should need. Cause apparantly right, we need that latest atas model of car to woo that hot chick you stalk everyday, to drift in, to shoot your own mtv video with jessica simpson.. and I dont know, to be able to walk in a more dignified way in front of your peers?

cause kononnye it comes with a free shirt which you can parade around with and casually tell the unfortunate people who ask you where you got it from "oh, this. I got it from the car I just purchased"

"Some things in life are priceless. For everything else there's mastercard"
what a mastercard moment!

Education now is a need. Not a desire anymore. BUT desiring how much you are willing to sacrifice, financially or otherwise, is an option. Same goes with choosing the course you want. NOT a need.

For some, they choose it out of the desire of others. They sacrificed their own desire to meet with the needs of the so call future economy. Which is ironic since no one can predict whats going to happen in the next 24 hours, apatah lagi in another 24 years?

But in my opinion, when it boils down to the actual decision making, who else can provide better judgement then he himself?

I used to have second thoughts, doubts about pursuing a business related diploma, as I was from pure science and didnt know, didnt give a damn about the difference between supply and demand. As long as I have water, food, air, electricity, internet access and coffee, it shall be none of my business. Leave the numbers and figures to the experts.

Wanna know the reason why I choose business administration last time?
cause I watched too much apprentice thats why.
cause that show makes walking around with an MBA seem cool.

cause my mom's best friend holds an MBA.
and she's way cool.

dont think I'll go that far la. A degree for me will suffice.

cause my SPM results made me feel stupid in the midst of the berpuluh-puluhan A's people get nowadays.
cause I lack the confident to do form 6 and perhaps get a placing in a local Uni?
cause I am not brillant enough to get a scholarship and get whisked off to some foreign land of angmohs?
cause my folks are just normal people with normal salaries?

They say the rat race starts the moment you get into the work force.
I digress.
The rat race actually does start from the moment you step into school.



Such a conflict of needs and desires.
Ah well, its all part and parcel of life anyway.
We all have to gotta learn to deal with it.

Labels: exams college, personal, thoughts

Ingatkan orang-orang yang tersayang

Sometime this week, I woke up thinking :" Damn, I am fat!"
Sometime this week I woke up thinking: "Shit. Study!"
Sometime this week, I woke up thinking: "Fuck the stupid alarm!!!"
Sometime this week I woke up thinking: "OMG, its 5pm already?!"
Sometime this week I woke up thinking: "All I need is three hours of sleep! woohoo!"

Lol. Really random right? But usually during college, my first thoughts will normally be the third one from the top.

Cause its natural thats why.

Actually, these are the few thoughts that went through my mind in the mornings of this week. Nevertheless, the one that made the most profound effect on me today was probably this thought I had 3 or 4 mornings ago:

"I need to learn to drive."

Yes, mei kay still doesnt know how to drive. Dont laugh.

Long story cut short, I went to listen my undang today. It was agonizing due to a variety of reasons, I dont know if its the 2 and half hours of sleep, the stupid corny old videos from a time where people still think shoulder pads are cool, the airconditioning, the brain freeze, the law notes i smuggled in to read or the annoying invigilator who keeps asking us for feedback. And, I hope he got the feedback he wanted!

here are the examples:

Highlights:

(on what to bring out before driving)

Invigilator: Sebelum keluar pandu, kena buat apa?

The answers he got:
check engine,
check break,
check tayar,
check dompet,
check duit,
check mirror (tengok hansem tak)

Ingatkan orang yang tersayang.
lol.

(on what to do when some on coming traffic crosses into your lane)
The answers he got:

Pusing kiri,
pusing kanan,
Saje pusing, biarlah dia langgar tepi atau belakang.
U-turn!
brek!
terjun!
aiyo serah pada nasiblah.
pecut and langgar dia sebelum dia langgar u. biarlah mati dengan puas.
me: berdoa!

Ingatkan orang yang tersayang.

(on what to do when the car's break mulfunction when your going down a slope)
The answers he got.

handbrek!
tukar clutch!
pecut!
drift!
U-turn!
Hon tak henti-enti!
langgar pokok!
terjun kereta! (wah so james bond!)
berdoa lagi!!

Ingatkan orang yang tersayang.

(on what not to do when driving)

minum minuman keras.
berkhayal.
mimpi.
sms.
dengar phone.
makan.
tidur.

Invigilator: Bagaimana dengan awek cantik?
(guys suddenly lights up)

tengok!
hon!
bersiul!
tanye nombor telephone.

haha!
NOW i know WHY the accident rates in Malaysia is so high.

If PAS was in reign, I bet they'd ban the awek cantik from walking alongside the road. Cause they are too distracting thats why!

I am taking my undang test on saturday morning! Yes,please dont remind me that I am an ass. I feel like one all the time okay? Will probably start looking like one sooner or late if this proceeds any longer.

Wish me luck ya'll.

A community message: And next time you folks decide to take your car out for a drive, Ingatkan orang-orang tersayang. the awek cantiks can always wait. :)

** update***
wont be taking my undang tomorrow. Arrangements was late and I didnt have a good feeling going through an unnessesary test despite my moms advice of "getting it over and done with". Killer paper accounts is up first :(

Labels: personal, random, test, undang

Tagging myself

In a bid to amuse myself, I have decided to tag myself with something which I stole from Aimee. Forgive me for the weirdness, I somehow havent been able to sleep for 24 hours already. Must be the overdose of coffee and tiger biscuits.

not kidding when they said "biscuit bertenaga" there I suppose.

oh yeah pardon my very very confusing previous post. as you can see, my inner thoughts can be really messed up. I promise you'd be able to understand this one. Its really simple.

I know its the 8th already, forgoodnesssake dont scold me!

01. What did you do in 2007 that you’d never done before?
bought dresses. went jungle trekking at 2am and ran into a wild boar. shifted house without parental help. came home at 5am cause merdeka countdown. stole balloons from planet hollywood. watch a friend steal a reserve sign. Chatted with people til 8am TWICE. Formal wear for 3 weeks straight. Fell in love with asam laksa? Cut my hair twice in 24 hours. pictures at japanese lalaphotobooths. Cut my hair like a boy and gel-ed it up. designed t-shirt. drew my own shirt. help draw a mural at a shopping complex. lost a handphone. colored contacts. got pulled down a rock by a bunch of malay kids at ulu langat waterfall.climb on roofs and harassed old mak ciks.learnt basic chacha. went on a date. became a college senior.camwhored to 4am. "kelehfeh" job (haha!) attended housemate's convocation. 4hour exam. article published in the star.flare up with lecturer. Presents from two years ago. Met an old primary classmate 'live'

Thats all I can remember.
I actually had to go through my past entries to refresh my memory..
Boy, 2007 had been eventful. Hope 2008 will be the same too. But eventful a happier way.

02. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Hahaha. Its embarassing. Not really! Except for one or two.

03. Did anyone close to you give birth?
The alley cat..

04. Did anyone close to you die?
Thankfully no.

05. What countries did you visit?
Cuti cuti Malaysia lah!

06. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
Sleep. Determination. Hope. Deligence.ah.. PUNCTUALITY :P

07. What dates from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
too many....

08. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Losing that fear of public speaking.

09. What was your biggest failure?
Definately procrastinating as a result of too much multitasking thus causing me to be, what my economics lecturer told me "being LATE consistently."

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
whew. I thought I had scoliosis, a form of osteoporeosis. A visit to GH cleared things up.

She told me I just need more exercise. -.-'

11. What was the best thing you bought?
w800i! and my nose shoes.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
huh?

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Too many. Too hurtful. Next question.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Food. Travel. Birthday cakes. Clothes. College Stuff.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
2008?

16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
Beautiful Girl by Sean Kingston.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you: a) happier or sadder? b) thinner or fatter? c) richer or poorer?
same. fatter. poorer. :(

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Study. Sleep. Swim. Be more nicer to some people. More responsible. Homework.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Procrastinate. Worry. Frown.

20. How did you spend Christmas?
With a very sleepy person. haha!

21. Did you fall in love in 2007?
I did! With asam laksa. Burger! :D

22. What was your favorite TV program?
Grey's Anatomy. Heros.

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Yes.

24. What was the best book you read?
One red paperclip.

25. What was your greatest musical discovery?
That CD they keep looping at Topshop. Rediscovering Oasis.

26. What did you want and get?
A new phone. A higher GPA.

27. What did you want and not get?
Faith in a person. Rekindling old friendship.

28. What was your favorite film this year?
The Simpsons. definately.

29. What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?
Studied. Stupid economics again. 19.

30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
To redo some parts of semester four again.

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
t-shirt, jeans, sport shoes and occasional accesory thrown in.

32. What kept you sane?
Music. Internet. Coffee. Friends. Blogging. HOPE.

33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
LeeHom. Dalai Lama.

34. What political issue stirred you the most?
The monks rally? Badawi remarrying? Hindraf? Exploding models? MP kata "Bocor"? Zakaria mansion? Handsome astronauts? Benazir Bhutto assasignation?

Politics are always disturbing.

35. Who did you miss?
Alot of people...

36. Who was the best new person you met?
You! :)

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007.
Learn to live as you learn.

woah. I am done.
This is quite fun actually!

I'll stop with an advice: If you dont wanna sleep for long consecutive hours, take coffee and tiger biscuits.

Janji bertenaga!
Ps: Listen to One Republic's Stop and Stare. Its really good! Check out the lyrics!

Labels: tag personal

Filling empty bottles with air
My fingers trace the pages of my lecture notes. Highlighting those points which I presume important.

"Orange for topics. Yellow is for important points."

This I tell myself. My eyes scan through the pages, yet my mind registers nothing. I try again and again, and all I get is this blankness.

Music serves as a powerful distraction as I try to empty all the thoughts running through my head. To numb all the emotions running wild. I try to keep my head straight, to not think so much.

But its hard not to.

It started from that unbelievable call before 12 pm yesterday. I was worried sick and hearing you trying to be brave eventhough you were crying over the phone.It really had me stoned. I dont think I'd be able to pick up the receiver and dail someone if I were in your shoes. Gal, you were brave. And I learnt I sucked at comforting people.

Thus the whole day proceeded with me walking around with a myriad of jumbled up thoughts and emotions which I just cant seem to express nicely to anyone.Words for once, failed me. I was... in a certain sense. I thought of you. I thought of myself. And I though of all poor people. I thought about the future.

And it got me feeling so
paranoid
scared
worried

Mom told me I looked disturbed. and I told her what happened. She then understood why I spoke with such urgency. Every decible dripping with concern, she tried to coax me out of my mood. I kept to myself. I seeked solace from Sam instead. This morning she named me several alternatives. Anything can happen in two years.I dont want anything to happen to you, you said.

I only had one reponse: I dont know.
I really dont.
Dont wanna be a burden.
I dont even know where you got all that faith in me.

Its sickening to hear so much news about so many happenings and to be powerless to speak out. Are our voices so meek and feeble, they are meer whispers falling on deaf ears? do we need to stuff your pockets with wads of cash to break the silence? Or wait til the tabloids scream it all out? I am so sick of the whole issue. My ears are so tired of all the news I get, I think they are ready to spew blood.

Frustration leads to anger. Which leads to rebellion and screams of injustice. When you finally realise that all is in vain and that the whole problem is just as important as the speck of dust that resides on the top of a shelf, you learn to resign. Numb the feeling, shut up and give up trying altogether.

I feel so tired. So dissapointed. To hope for a better future for all of us.

I care. I really do. But do the people on top care? No, go on sipping your teh tariks while discussing over datuk chua's 55 minutes of glory. Trying to understand his vigour in bed is probably more important than us anyway.

Time and time again, I have been proven as an insolent fool of 19 going on 20 years, trying to be optimistic over nothing. Putting my faith on things which others have already abandoned all hope altogether.

Its just as pointless as filling empty bottles with air.

Labels: personal

Just random

Something my sister and me talked about today. It was her first day in secondary school yesterday.

Damn, I feel so proud of her all of a sudden.

Anyway, this is how it went:

Sis: Eh, kay ah. You know there is a boys' staircase and a girls' staircase in my school?
Me: What do you mean by boys' and girls' staircases?
Sis: Boy are only allowed to use the boys' staircase and the girls are only allowed to use the girls' staircase.
Me:What do they think you all wanna do at the staircases?!
Mom: hahahahahahahah!

-.-' WTF!

Apparently right, the boys' staircase is beside the boys' toilet and the girls'.. well right next to the girls' toilet.My sister even went on to tell me that the boys' staircase is nearer to the school gat, complaining how unfair it is that girls have to walk further. lol.

Yeah, I wonder why they call this a co-ed school?

Labels: random

Ok, people! Party's over!
Its time to get serious.

The taste of celebration still lingers upon everyone's mouths it seems. The screams of the crowd during the countdown still ring in your ears. And for some, their unwashed laundry still has the lingering scent of liqeour, faint but somewhat distinguishable amongst the pile of clothing.

Ah..its the year end, everyone deserves to cut some slack. To play a fool, spray innocent strangers with spray cans. Yell their hearts out at the mere mention of fireworks. Shop til they drop.

Or in my case, windowshop til I drop. lol.

Yesterday I went jalan jalan with my ex roomie for 6 hours in Mid Valley and the Gardens in conjuction to the new year. Damn I sayang this woman alot la. Yes, just two of us against all the crazy shopoholics, the camwhores around the christmas trees, the sayang-menyayangi couples, poor lost men who were left alone in the walkways probably abandoned by their wives and girlfriends poor things, screaming kids and grumpy salespeople.

Brave yea?
to the bf: sorry I pinjam your wife to keluar with me on such an auspicious day =P

Anyway, celebrations are over. Its time to dig my heels in, resist all temptations, make like a hermit and lock myself in the room with only internet connection and.. study.

No more hohoho
No more aud lang syne.

Its time to study!

Meet my idol. Char Siew.
No pau.
Just Char Siew.

Her hard work and dedication is something I need to learn more of.

In conjuction of my coming days of living like a hermit, here is a list of stock which I shall need in my days of darurat.

1.Coffee. Load and load of coffee
2.Milo. Just in case I get sick of coffee fat chance
3.Biscuits Hup Seng
4.Peanut butter
5.Raisins cause they are good for memory and is delicious
6.Maggi Mee. Yay! My livesaver in times of pure laziness.

I shall also need silence, common sense, patience, dedication, hard work, memory, my all reliable orange and yellow highlighter (sry other colors just wont cut it), stabilo color pens and a whole pile of test pads to get myself through.

Oh yeah and luck.
Loads of it please.

No wonder she looks so worried all the time.

Labels: personal, random